Lost in time.

Remember. You gotta remember things in particular moments. You remember moments in moments. Why those moments. Because they meant something. Maybe because they still mean something. Why is it all about feelings, about emotions. Why do we have ask all those questions and why is there no answer in our brain already. There should be a button in our mind with solutions and answers for desperate times. When you feel bad you shouldn’t put up with thinking how things could get easier. There sould be some gen in our body which helps in these times. There is none of such a thing. None. There is just the heart and the mind. Former doesn’t work well when the first is sick, in pain – when your heart is lost the mind has obviously no answer. Why? I want an answer. Now. Without overthinking every detail. Without overfeeling every detail. Over and over again. Memories. Memories are those feelings which come up when you see, smell or hear something – something that must have been sophisticated in your past; hence worth remembering. Do we always wanna remember things? Even good things can turn in bad emotions. Why? It’simple. Because you hold on to people, to friends, to beloved ones- just because of the good memories. The good times you were having with somebody is most of the times more important than the bad. Is it logic that way? Too much memories. Nostalgia. When you don’t live in here and now you most possibly live in the past. No you don’t need a time machine, you just need your memories. Erase them! Cut them out. Well, that ain’t easy. Overthinking, overfeeling and then just forgetting about everything that is seeding pain in your heart? If it was that easy there would nothing to be worried about. Worried? Yes, worried about now and here about the future. Cause your past is still coming up in those memories you couldn’t forget. Maybe you unconsciously didn’t want to forget. Do you wanna forget them if you always remember them. Yea you do. A victim of a crime remembers painful images all the time but it sure as hell doesn’t want to. So dear scientist, could you please invent an eraser for memories and notions which bother you while you need to concentrate? If it doesn’t make sense to erase memories because form an other angle they might be helpful and somehow logic ( doubting this one at the moment ) then please at least invent a button to snooze them away. Every time you remember you can just click the snooze button. We love those who don’t deserve it we hurt those who love us and we want things we can’t have and don’t appreciate those we do. Lost in time. Lost in space. Lost in memories. Regrets and mistakes- flying around; sitting down on your shoulder talking into your ears. You hear voices you don’t wanna hear you don’t hear words you need to hear. It goes on. Everything goes on. Pain is inevitable but suffering is an option. Even without the button you can be strong, move on look forward and keep up what you need to do. Everything happens for a reason, even pain, even desperate times. Stick to that, hold on to that.

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